yesterday was..

hello again..

im sorry. i didn't get the chance to write something yesterday because i went shopping with my family. yknow. first of all, i hate going out with my family. especially with my little sisters. they're so annoying. i can just cut my throat and die. i was sort of screaming all the time because they're so noisy like hell mahn. & my dad was listening to 70's songs and sang it. what a mess. no fun mahn no fun. basically, we went to abeb's house. yesterday was her birthday. we no gif her present. haha. due to last minute preparations. we only bagi ia cake. then then, we went to pertama jaya. huh. bali groceries and stuffs. i bought 10 crunchies. 2 lays. salt & vinegar and cheese flavors. i bought perfume, boxes, mostly chocolates lah. :) grr. then i went to giant. bali jeans, shirts and cematulaaah. then i went home. boring. :/

i don't belong here

hi again..

im not really in a good mood right now because i just don't feel like going to school tomorrow. i just don't wanna see all my friends there, especially teachers : | i just hate everyone in my school. i just don't feel that school suits me because i just feel like im not supposed to be there. hmm. how can i.. i feel like im not that clever, smart like really. honestly, i feel stupid. im not a good girl. im a bad.. girl >:) eyaaah, setaie eh. actually i am a good girl. eseeeh. laziness makes me bad. i haven't done my homework yet. see, how lazy i am. right now, everythings feel so heavy. my leg dont wanna move. my eyes. o shizz. my eys can actually. yknow what i mean? no? okay. i mean, i feel so heavy to walk to my room. arrange all my books. do my homeworks. writting makes me feel "huhhh" even homework makes me go " aaaaaa, what is this? what's all this? 2 x 2 is what? aaaa!" hahaha. dont underestimate me because i know how to calculate 2 x 2. nyeeeh. it's 4 kan? seee, im awesome!


sighs* my brain  says "afif ahmad" :') can't you gals see how much i miss him :(  i wanna see him so bad. bad. bad. :( i hope ia rindu aku jua like i do. i hope he's thinking of me like i do too. i love you afif! :) <3 <3

emma & laila. please post something on this blog. pleaseeeeeeeee.

till here.

lots of love,
azillafifi. x

i wonder if i ever cross his mind..

umm.. hello.

there's not much going on today. i missed him, afif ahmad. i went to sleep late last night around 2+. cuz i slept for about 7 hours in the afternoon. couldn't dim my eyes. he has gone for like weeks. :| i really miss him like words can't describe how much i do. last message from him was [you'll see it at the bottom] okay, lets continue. i spent a day just looking at his pictures. the videos he sent me. that was cute. previous messages from him. been such a wonderful splendid memories :)) hmm. it's 6:58 pm. i'm all alone and i need him right now :( yknow how exactly it feels right when you miss someone for a very long time, even if a day without them feels like a years. that's what we called love :) i guess.. todays like the worst day of mine. Monte Carlo is on tomorrow. too bad laila's parents won't let her. it wouldn't be much more fun than i expect it to be. laila, it wouldn't be complete without you. it'll be boring if aku sama emma saja :( you said you couldn't wait for Monte Carlo but in the end kau inda dapat :( this mess is so messy! i was really excited you know but then inda tia jadi. you how it feels when kau excited for that something then "alaaaaaaa" :( so sad eh. i really wanna go. sama cousin boring. have been watching with dorang sudah. i never been out for a movie sama friends even boyfriend pun inda pernah. sighs* what a life~ sabar saja. laila, yknow what i hope kau inda kana suruh oleh your parents. please lah. thats what we aim to watch. MONTE CARLO. YA ALLAH. see. mental ku eeeeeh. gila. bah i think i stop here saja eh. i got nothing to say lagi. so bye-bye. hehe.

lotsof love,

azillafifi.

Afif Ahmad June 27 at 2:06pm Report

yeaaah. but now me minjam laptop kawan me ah, tapi sekajap saja ni. and i love you muuuuuuuuuuuuch more zyll la! xoxoxo ♥ sigh, i miss you too everytime i do :') oh, who is she? lavvvya more sweety! ♥ x awwww, so sweet. lawa the photo baby :))

Afif Ahmad June 27 at 2:10pm Report

takecare sayang! i love you so much more! ♥ :)

Afif Ahmad June 27 at 2:22pm Report

I MISS YOU SO MUCH! takecare at swimmingpool later ;) ♥ xxxo

Afif Ahmad June 27 at 2:42pm Report

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